#12: Dear Future Husband

a letter, a celebration, a romantic side

My Dearest Reader,

I am writing to you today with a very sore throat but a very hope-full romantic heart (I never understood the concept of calling oneself a hopeless romantic, I am a very hope-FULL romantic).

More about this later, but for now, I’ll just say one thing - I love writing letters; it is a HUGE love language for me.

I am having jittery + bubbly + sorta nervous thoughts about sharing this letter with you today, but here I am :)

A letter to my future husband

Dear future husband,

I don’t know who you are yet. We probably haven’t met or maybe we have and we just haven’t realised yet that we are going to be spending the rest of our lives as each other’s most favourite human beings <3

Why am I writing to you? Simply because I want to and I think it’s cute. Picture this: in the future, I forget this letter. You being the absolute romantic that you are, aim to read everything that I write and have written, including this one. You stumble upon this on a random weekday afternoon during your lunch break at work and begin smiling so endlessly that your colleagues get very curious about what you are looking at. Fast forward to the weekend, you’re up early making me an avocado toast, I wake up a little later and walk into the kitchen with sleepy-puffy eyes, purple PJs and messy hair. you say “happy morning Kanmani” and I’m taken by surprise because this feels straight out of a movie, I smile my contagious smile. We spend the rest of the morning sipping on peppermint tea, eating toast and talking about how you stumbled upon this little girl version of me writing to you, way before I knew you as my partner.

Okay but why I am I writing today specifically? Because my parents just celebrated their 25th Anniversary this Monday. I witnessed a milestone of a celebration between two people who are absolute children around each other, two people who home unreasonable amounts of joy within their relationship. Seeing them made it clear to me that when you and I finally meet, we need to ensure to create miraculous amounts of space for the child in us to live on - enough space to be un-judgementally silly around each other.

Moving onto just you and I, I wrote a poem - maybe this is a currently untitled poem, or maybe just phrases that I know future me will keep hearing you say to me (told you I was a romantic haha!)

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there are croissants on the table 
here I got you a bougainvillea, found it on my morning run  
lets be by the ocean 
don’t tell me you used my toothbrush again, you are unbelievable(ly cute) 
love how you float in my t-shirts 
come I’ll give you a hug
it's okay wear those, you're more comfortable in it
wanna go on a long drive
let me braid your hair for you
excuse me where is my wife and how is she wearing high heels?! But WOW!
can I lay on your lap
shall I read to you
want me to stroke your hair
i know this is a huge milestone for you
i am so proud of you
i’ll teach you football so that we can watch together 
can you teach me how you do this
it's so hard to be mad at you, it's not fair!
ah how much I love the writer girl side of you
sourdough bread for the missus please
you snort, snore and burp like a gorilla 
i love seeing how strong you are getting in the gym
you have a contagious smile 
will you be my infinity
i know that you know that this is a rhetorical question
coming straight home from work 
கண்மணி* (kanmani), I am home.

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Universe are you listening :) I know you are. Thank you for delivering.

I am so excited to meet you in the future my love.

All my heart,

Your one and only

கண்மணி*

(*For those who don’t know tamil: while a translation never does complete justice, கண்மணி (pronounced as Kanmani) is a tamil language word that is used to address a loved one, something on the lines my sweetheart but with wayyyyyyyyy more feels)

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A few thoughts

Writing letters is a huge love language for me. I love writing to my loved ones, my family, my friends, people that I don’t know personally but have touched me in some way, people that are no longer here in my life physically… you get the gist right?

Writing letters allows me to cherish relationships, relive moments, treasure them, express phenomenal gratitude, appreciation and admiration to my loved ones. And most importantly I love love love the miraculous joy of being able to catch a loved one smile big when they read a letter I’ve written to them.

So if there is one thing you take away from today, write a letter to someone that you love and cherish.

That’s all for this week my lovelies. Thank you for reading my letter with kindness. I’ll see you soon again. If I can make one request, please take a moment to share Masala Puff Moments with anyone you think might enjoy it. It would mean the world to me + it would truly help me grow :)

With warmth and wonder,

Vaishnavi

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I’m Vaishnavi Radhakrishnan, a management trainee in a business that I love, a poet, a writer and a 23 year old figuring out her space in this world. I love admiring bougainvilleas, being by the ocean, and buying jibbitz for my purple crocs. Come say hi to me on instagram DM @vaishnavi.radhakrishnan I’d love to get to know you :)

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